Im feeling kind of blah. I am utterly exhausted, and have been for the last couple of days. Not sure why, I think I just need a vacation!
So i think i'm having a couple of bad days, not really bad. Just off. We went to our neices bday party and I just felt so out of place. All the kids just confirm for me that it IS what I want, and just remind me of how long it will be before I get there, how long it's already been. Next bday will be the other neice, she'll be 1. Already. That will be tough. No matter how much I think i'm ok with this whole thing. It will be hard to keep a smile on my face. Just knowing that I've been trying since before her mom got pregnant with her and now she's 1 will be difficult.
Sometimes the passage of time is just a horrible reminder.