Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Dec 5th

I go for my blood pregnancy test on Dec 5. At 7:30. They normally get their blood results back by 2:30 and make the calls around 3:00.

I don't think I'll be able to focus that day.

Even though I know deep down that the IUI doesn't give us a great chance, I have so much hope, I mean, I know that my body responded well to the meds, (well everything but my eggs) And that I had two perfect follicles. Im doing everything I can to make this happen, so now I just have to wait and see if it does.

Patrick told me last night that he doesn't want to wait 2 weeks to find out....um well you don't have much control over that, it's awesome to see him so excited, but I don't want him to have a broken heart too.

I guess 1 week from Friday, we'll know for sure.

Total Cuteness-

So last night Pat's friend Brian called about going hunting on Thanksgiving, and while they were on the phone he told Pat that his little boy Alex included us in his dinnertime prayers. He prayed for a baby for us.

What an angel.

I immediately teared up when he told me what Brian said, and actually Im tearing up a little now just typing it!

Damn Hormones!

Friday, November 21, 2008

Well here we are

Even though our IVF got cancelled, im still holding out hope that the IUI tomorrow will work! We do have optimal conditions, lining and hormone levels look great, just my egg production sucks!

Last night I gave myself a big shot in the ass ( the last one for now, thank god!) and It was terrifying. My hand was shaking so bad I didn't think i'd be able to do it, Pat could have done it, but it's less scary if I just do it myself. The little stomach shots seem like nothing now compared to that. Pat just kept saying, "you can do it, this one is the baby shot". I really don't know how I'd get through this without him.

Tomorrow is the big day. Im scared and nervous, and excited. Even though I know it doesn't give us much more of a chance than old fashioned baby making at home ( which doesn't seem to work for us, I swear we are doing it right!) It somehow feels so different. I know that if it doesn't work it will be our biggest dissapointment yet, and we'll have to decide what to do next.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Nerves,

I have a doctors appt in the morning, and fuck am I nervous.

I've been taking these meds, and really haven't had many side effects, I guess I should be glad, but that scares me into thinking that they aren't doing what they are supposed to be doing.

I have no idea what to expect to see tomorrow, but god I hope its something in the right direction!